Another Day, Another Dollar...
Well, we survived yet another day. I cannot officially comment on Ryan's day, although he didn't call me in tears, so that has to be a good sign. No news is good news, right?
I do have to say, at the very least, even if my day is sucking (which they are, a little bit) at least I have the privilege of having internet at school. I can check my email at lunch, and blog after school, and the best part is - it's free!! No more paying up the wazoo to check my email!!
Today was not a great day, although it was better than yesterday. I don't feel like I have much of a handle on the noise issue in class. I have set up the "traffic light" noise monitor (for those of you who don't know, red is silence, yellow is whisper, green is indoor voice) but it doesn't seem to work. It's only day two and I feel like I am spiriling out of control with the noise. I don't have a secure system of getting their attention, and it's frustrating.
I took the kids outside today to read a story, and they seemed to enjoy it. They loved the book, they were laughing and coming up with great ideas, and they were getting a little bit of fresh air at the same time. If the kids are having fun and learning something, then why do I feel like such a lousy teacher? I find it hardest not to compare myself to the other teachers at the school, and that is destructive to me because they are more experienced and they also have been teaching at this school for more than two days. But I want to be just as good, meanwhile I am fumbling with my planning, and unsure about duties and when and where the kids need to be when. And then come the parent questions. I don't know the answers, but they expect me to because I am the teacher. I still have so much to learn.
Please pray that I make it through the next day (friday) and that I actually go back on monday. I am feeling like a bad teacher, and I am homesick, and I just generally need a boost.
Love you all!!
posted by Elaine and Ryan's Adventures in LIFE! @ 6:03 PM
8 Comments:
elaine dont be so hard on yourself, your right it's two days in your career, in your new job, in new surroundings, kids aren't used to you, you not with them.
Things will get better, dont quit because quitting sucks and quitting means you suck, i dont mean that you do but you must not quit because it proves nothing, unless it's absoulutley necessary.
I know things will get better for you, the traffic light monitor, neat idea. Right now those kids are testing you and so if you let them they will walk all over you, I know that is not your intention, you will become a good teacher, it will take some time though. I am so happy you both got jobs over there and God is still in control, trust him and dont let little things bug you because if you do it will drive you crazy, speaking of experience in my workplace, these things happen all of the time, I have learned over time to just get over it and move on, and looking back on most of it, i actually laugh because it's so juvenile. You better go back monday unless God has provided you with another alternative, I am so glad ryan is over there to help you to keep going, he has done this with me in so many different things, hang in there it will get better, promise, bryn :)
one thing i forgot to mentioned in my previous comment, remember why you are over there in the first place, is it for the job, is it to get away from canada for awhile, or is it simply showing the love of God to your kids, coworkers, and others you rub shoulders with, as you wake up each day, know that God is there waiting for you to come with him on a wonderful journey that day, and that journey includes showing others about himself, sometimes it may be a rough course you are running but know that he is still there, making that course a bit easier to run if you let him, try not to get too discouraged, you are not alone and we all get those days, trust me, :)
I agree with Bryn, quitting is not an option, just keep putting one foot in front of the other until you're running. Have you tried the hands in the air for silence like they did at camp? Remember that the teachers were all newbies at one time too. Use them as resources and ask for their opinions. Everyone feels overwhelmed at a new job, and if you quit this one you'll just feel overwhelmed in a different place. I personally believe you were born to be a teacher, so get out there and teach something! Love you, Julie
Hi Ryan and Elaine!
It's been nice to hear how things are going...but to my dismay it's not as pleasant a start I nor you anticipated. Tears came to my eyes feeling for you at the church service, your ear problem, and just loneliness adjusting to this transition.
God is certainly in control! Continue to trust God, He will supply all your needs. We have come to realize God also will teach us many things through life's circumstances, all to become more Christ-like. We continue to keep you in our prayers.
love, The Lemays
ELAINE AND RYAN!! You had better have a darn good excuse. It is MONDAY NIGHT! And your last blog entry was THURSDAY!! I am very upset. Please update us on your lives. Thank you! (p.s. I love you!)
Well, I know Elaine had a good excuse yesterday because I was fortunate enough to chat with her. However, it is now 7 pm your time on tuesday and STILL nothing. Therefore, I agree with Stef and insist on an update...love you, Julie
steph and julie and others who want an update on their lives;
I also would like an update but understand somewhat what they are going through right now and I know it's been almost a week, but she nearly wrote everyday and then she doesn't write for a few and hopefully we will be a bit more patient, please be patient with them, thanks also for your love and support for them, i know they appreciate that very much
thanks all :)
It is probably crazy getting used to the school system over there. I am sure you are an amazing teacher, they just have strange expectations... don't let them ruin your time there... in a couple of weeks you will have totaly control of the situation and be showing them that you are a great teacher. Where do you plan on going shopping? Any plans for sight-seeing? Are you going to go to other countries while you are over there?
Julie
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